Live in the Moment

It's almost November, and I can't believe that I just planned my next semester of college.
Lately I've been really caught up in what is going to happen in nine months (which is when I'm leaving for Spain for almost six months). I have been doing all of my homework, and keeping up with my orgs but honestly my head is a continent away.

Most of you know that I'm in a long distance relationship with my boyfriend MB, which can be hard at times.  We are normally always looking forward to the next time we see each other, which makes the weeks go by really quickly (27 days, but who's counting). It also makes it hard to really concentrate on the here and now when I'm looking forward to seeing him.  Lately there seems to always be that question of "What's next for you two?".

I've realized I'm not enjoying being 19, a sophomore in college who is lucky to be with her best friend no matter the distance. I am surrounded by friends & sisters, as well as family who I love and have so much fun with!

Being 19 is this weird limbo. I'm not a teenager, but I don't usually feel like an adult. I am still walking this rope between being a teenager and finding my way as an adult. 

I want to start enjoying life, not just plan ahead for the life I want later. I've always looked for that next step. What to do next to get ahead, what's the next step in my relationship, and what's the next event? I have mentally planned out next Monday already. While I know this is one of the reasons I am able to be successful, it unfortunately means I have to consciously remind myself to have fun that doesn't involve public relations, my blog, or cleaning. (Yes I sound like a 19 year old work-a-holic)

Do you ever feel like you have to out "busy" someone? Sometimes I think I take on projects to seem busy. As weird as a it may seem, I have to stop doing this. Yes I'm busy, but I'm also efficient.

This past weekend I almost completely unplugged. I spent the time with my extended family and enjoyed myself. These next two weekends should be relatively relaxing and I've decided to try and turn off that part of my brain that enjoys work. 

I shouldn't have to wait nine months to live in the moment. It's time to split my brain, half for play and half for fun. I want spontaneous trips to Target or Taco Johns with my sisters or roommates, I want to be able to look back at my college career and say "boy was that fun".  I don't need to go party every weekend, because that's definitely not me but I do want to stay up until 2 talking or watching movies! 

How do you unwind and live in the moment? I may need some suggestions!
Do you try to out "busy" someone?

xoxo,

Letting Go

Here is a bit more personal post, I like to do these once in awhile, and I would love your feedback!

There are a million and one lessons that you learn while growing up, and there is one that I have had a really hard time learning. That lesson is letting go of people who no longer are meant to be in your life. Whether its a friend who you no longer have much in common with, or a past partner whom you were close with but realized that the relationship was no longer serving either of your best interests. 

At the end of high school I had to let go of a relationship where we had both grown, but in different directions. We were close, and had gotten each other through a lot in high school. I realized though that I especially wasn't the same person that I was sophomore year. I had grown up, but differently than my partner.

I moved on in October, fell for my best friend who is now my wonderful boyfriend MB. I however was not over the friendship from high school, and it took me six months and multiple attempts at reconnecting to realize that we weren't meant to be friends right now. We both had to figure out things on our own. 

Now while we aren't meant to be friends now, there is always later in life. Also the fact that we can't be friends now doesn't mean that our relationship wasn't important, or wasn't true. Every person you have any sort of relationship I fully believe serves a purpose. Whether it was to make you smile, or help you through a tough time people are there for a reason.

I have a hard time letting go because I want to keep that person in my life, and continue to care for them and help them. Sometimes I need to realize that it wasn't meant for me to help them or care for them still,and that other people have to do that.

I have finally let go, not of our friendship throughout high school, but the idea that we were the same people. I am sure that he is a great person and will go far.

Being positive about situations in which you need to let go of a person is easier than being bitter. Being bitter may be easier, but it could destroy your relationships with other people. Here are some tips on how to let go. 

1. Don't talk to mutual friends: One of my problems was talking with our mutual friends too much about it. In order to get over someone, you need to stop thinking about it!

2. Unfriend, Unfollow and don't search!: Get them off your Facebook, off your Twitter and DON'T SEARCH. Out of sight out of mind. 

3. Have Fun, Reminisce, Move On: Don't dwell on it. Let go a little. 

Now this may not be a person for you, it may be a dream job, or an opportunity. While that maybe gone, try looking for a similar opportunity, or use it to motivate you. 

Disclaimer: This is what worked for me, it may not always work for you!

What do you think? What do you do in this situation?

xoxo

AV